Video Description: The presentation started with Baba ji welcoming friends to the monthly meeting. He talked about ego we use all the time…all these are terms adopting individualization of our self. All our problems are because of ego. The separation of our self from out there is how we create ego. Totality of consciousness is all that there is experience and experience are all well. When we say totality of consciousness is reality and truth we are talking of EVERYTHING that exist is a part of it. I only comes when mind separates self from others. If we have no I we cannot be a seeker, cannot do meditation do nothing therefore to get over problem of ego has to use ego to overcome the mind.

Spiritual will and mental will- differences are? Spiritual will is also ego…(I will surrender to master etc.) but it’s a positive ego in right direction. On other hand, which is focused on outside is a chronic diseases. Where does spiritual ego/ will comes from? It comes from beyond the mind! Ego we use to function in this world is face of the mind. Creative power we call ‘God’ we can use any word…when we want to make a personification of totality we starting from ego our true home (where we can maintain our totality and individuality). If we did not have individualization at all there will be no ego to go back. Where does individuation occur…its just below our true home (parbrahm). Individual soul exists there. We are dealing with mental not spiritual ego! We develop a spiritual will…to take beyond mind …because we are realizing our own self as a individual soul. When we say different soul are dancing and singing in Sachkhand..are they really separated? No our true home has great facility we can be total and individual at the same time! We can experience separation and totality at the same time. How does that happen? Because there is no time and space over there! It is only time and space that makes ego separated from us and becomes mental ego. We are in physical body within space and time.

Everything we experience here is also experienced in Sachkhand. All we have done is lose awareness of this…when we awareness increase we call it Astral plane. These are various method we employ in time and space. T&S are secrets we generated outside of ourselves. Everything is happening inside but by time and space we project it outside. We can change what it outside from where we project it outside. We have no power what has been stored inside ourselves. We cannot change it in Astral or physical plane…it is at a higher plane where we generated space and time…if we want to change something outside today go to that level. Do you want to change when we go there? GM told him if you want to change something that means its not perfect…go inside what changes will be better for creation. Baba Ji realized there was no change he could make…totality show the perfection of this universe. We are sitting in physical plane this is all pre-determined. By use of experience of free will we feel we make changes and alterations. If we go up to higher level we find pre-determined life we lead here is at higher level not here…we can change what is pre-determined at that level. So its important to find out what do we have inside that we can change outside.  We have experiences without physical body…when we die…we can find out what life we have without body with self which is still there (mind, soul is there). We can find out BEFORE dying…by dying while living is very important to understand what happens when we die. After we die we go into Astral life. If we haven’t gone to causal plane we can’t tell our density as density is fixed in physical and astral plane. Fortunately it is possible via meditation to experience what it is like to be in casual and astral plane. At casual level is not merely a body of our…casual level where concepts comes in…including values (pick out a number like what is five times…). All these concepts are like living beings in casual plane..its a very different life there than two lower planes. When we use imagination in meditation, we close our eyes we are still there…we have a body we feel…we are there in another form where we can fly physical body remains still. If we are able to withdraw our attention completely. That imaginative self becomes MORE real than the physical body and physical experience. In Astral we have no physical matter other than that everything is same as physical plane…in astral we become more lighter and we can fly etc. The easiest way to find out…the self is much lighter and they also see creator of universe is creator of astral and physical plane. All religions without exception has personified creative power…therefore cannot go beyond the astral plane. Beyond that there is no personification we know it. That is why the truth lies way beyond the mind which is not possible with meditation. Most people meditate by going to astral plane feel they are in heaven. This duality of hell and heaven in astral plane we go there but truth cannot be found which lies way beyond Astral plane.

Totality means everything is there…its only when we reach totality of consciousness we discover we never left our home but we left our awareness we therefore create level of consciousness. All description we have of different levels are within our true home (Sachkhand- opening our eyes from our dream and realize there is only one totality). Birth of individuation took place in our true home by use of consciousness to expand awareness and to contract awareness to soul individuation. This is what creates whole universe. He used example of glass of water to elaborate this. Soul is nothing more than contraction of awareness in our true home that we are individuated. When we leave our true home and come to place where we cannot see totality at all then we feel like separate stage of consciousness. When we start meditation at physical body it feels like traveling difference place…but there is no journey. Its like in dream we travel far away but we are actually lying physical same place in same bed but we had experience of going far away. Each level of higher awareness is nothing more than awakening to higher level. In physical form we have a unique feature given to us which we can free will..the great experience of making a decision which does not occur in dream. Dreams are interesting to study ourselves but in physical world we have a feeling we can do something on our own accord…it’s a very strange but good feature and forms a part of our ego/ individualization. The seeking within truth is also coming from same ego but from different direction. Spiritual will and mental is how we use that will…when we use it outside its mental if we use it withing its spiritual will.

Ego is a helper and a problem for us. GM said…If we had no ego…because ego is a problem…we are nothing if we start thinking like that where is the seeker gone? So how do we use ego in a very positive way and not try to make it small but make it large! So our spiritual ego can we make it as big as we like? Yes we can GM explained. GM explained this. How? That is done by saying we are not doing anything master is doing everything. We are enlarging our ego spiritual way. We live in master’s will…we experience great power becomes your awareness by leading life lead by master. If Master is doing all we are not breaking our ego into small bits but enlarging it with master. The power of action and experience to the level of the master. If we know master is totality of consciousness how it can help creating spiritual ego but not negatively but to help with spiritual progress. We are now using big ego as our ego to do things.  In meditation we get a chance to surrender. The first stage is easy to reach…if we become unaware of the body by concentration behind the eye to 3rd eye center. Next step is difficult to meditate with our inner self. Only when we lost all physical awareness but inner awareness and meditate from there we come to discover our real self. To get our true home…what is needed is love and devotion. Love comes from soul not mind. Love and devotion- start with for yourself for your big ego for your master…if you cannot see him inside start from outside. Love and devotion pulls you to causal plane. Beyond that we are pulled to higher level. The master appears inside and pulls and we cannot see master inside…therefore we feel that master is not putting inside but outside…which is not true. Love & devotion outside is actually going inside us…that is why love and devotion that takes us beyond the casual plane. Can we describe true home? All description we have is based on knowledge of physical world. There is no space and time so cannot describe beyond mind… so we make stories. Our mind try to catch up maybe its like physical world..its not like that at all…there is no description available. When we go to totality where there is no time…is something happening in totality where all this is created? Description given where there is something beyond our true home. What happens when soul goes beyond Sachkhand (alakh, agam, anami). Why these names that cannot be described, named or known? This is function of totality of consciousness can go into regions from whole world is created…its awareness of sathpurush.  Totality has inner experiences where whole world is created below. AAA are not 3 different stages they are all experiences of satpurush. They are used as rest of the universe is created from there. When we go to Sachkhand we know it’s a beautiful experience totality has everything in it.

To have experience of our soul we have to shut of experience of our mind. That is a very big handicap- we have turn off other experience to have higher experience. To have dream experience we shut off our wakeful experience etc. Physical world looks so real as we have shut off all other experiences. We cannot experience casual plane not before shutting of physical and astral plane experience. We have to isolate ourselves to have their experience. We can only have one level experience at one time. On other hand totality is all levels together. These experiences of all planes are all individual levels of consciousness. We realise that level we experience and come back. Totality of consciousness has all levels together therefore cannot be understood by our mind at all. That is why when we come across PLMs what do they we don’t have…they have the awareness of the totality of consciousness at same time. When they come in physical body we have no idea what their awareness is at all levels. They live according to all levels. He is inside although we see him outside. Go inside and check out if master we see outside is also inside? He talked about Julian Johnson about coming to see master so late to see him such an old age to see him. Master is there with us from time of our birth. It’s a beautiful game…go inside and find out via meditation that relationship with master is a permanent relation from the beginning. He asked to follow guidelines of our Government to stay safe and healthy during COVID-19 pandemic.